Monday, June 29, 2009
the first day of school after a long, long time.
well i suppose it has been okay, although i really felt that i would have been so much more efficient at home, without all the chit chatterings of my classmates. to be honest, the noise can be a little too frustrating at times. the day has made me feel suddenly uptight about the upcoming exams. and it doesnt feel exactly good. all i can say is just that school has made life really quite boring for me and i can really feel the pressure creeping up on me like some ghost. i guess the best thing about school now is recess and the canteen food. haha, i seriously missed it. but sadly, there are only 3 stalls opened today. :( oh and i think im going to be unable to tolerate wearing the uniform sooner or later. its very uncomfortable and warm. oh well. just another half a year more. easier said than done. haizz.
oh, and i sally-hensoned my nails just now already. haha, i got commented on my nails by so many people today, including the new music teacher Mrs Sng -Foo. oops. so dont the many of u keep harping on them already, okay haha. bye bye pink, not gonna see you for a long time. well at least not until the O levels are over. and bye bye miss lee:)
i was browsing through the files in my thumbdrive and i found this essay that i wrote last year for some competition that mrs yeo made me join in. haha, i totally agree with the argument points man.(duh, it was written by yours truly.) and in fact it still does apply to what i have in mind now. i shall post it, but please dont mind the lack of vocabulary. thankyou(:
The Environment and Me
Dora Chan, 15 july 2008
The environment. What exactly is the environment? Previously, science and geography teachers have been preaching to us that the environment comprises of the physical and man-made environment. Physical simply means Mother Nature, and man-made simply means the architecture constructed all around us in the present, modern industrialised world. The dictionary defines it as the surrounding objects or conditions. However, I feel that the environment refers also to the people and the events that are happening around us. I call it the psychological environment. The environment has to consist of people. What would the environment even exist as without any living being? If it were not for us people, our environment would be the equivalent of a ghost town. If it were not for us people, there would not be so many environmental issues worth discussing. If it were not for some people, my life could never even have been this way.
The people in my environment make it a very extremely competitive one. Not only am I referring to the present, but also to my past and future as well. Ever since nursery, when I was only a little toddler, unaware of, innocent and so vulnerable to the ugly world that lay before me, I was told countless times, by my psychological environment, that I had to beat the rest. I had to be the BEST in everything. It sounds unrealistic, yes, but that was the pressure from the people in my environment, especially my parents, who seem to be the ones who dominate my life.
Actually to come to think of it, the pressure from the psychological environment was kind of ironic. On one hand, my parents want me to do well but on the other hand they try to use discouragement as an attempt to push me to what they call ‘greater heights’. It is a different kind of pressure from what people might think. When I was in Primary One, my parents did not send me for tuition classes, art classes or ballet classes. Instead, they made me complete endless sets of assessment books. Since then, I could complete an approximate total of ten assessment books per year. I kid you not. Not only did my parents make me complete those assessment books, they also made me copy out my spelling and dictation words everyday without fail. Vividly, I remember painstakingly writing each word ten times per day, with the dictation passage being copied out thrice. Also, I could not go to the playground for recreation, like any other child would love to, until I finished all my work I was supposed to do for that day.
Perhaps, you might think that this treatment and degree of pressure is very normal or even suitable, to be put on a child. I strongly think otherwise. A child’s environment should be filled with joy and laughter, squeals and delight. However, it is definitely not so in my case. My environment has been filled not only with the constant pressure to do well and better, it has also been filled with fear. The fear of getting punished. Once, I remember, when I was in Primary Two, my mathematics marks deteriorated from 88% to 79%. As expected, I got a heavy tongue-lashing plus a good whacking from my mother that night. As a result, my outlook of the psychological environment decreased drastically.
In my current situation, the pressure from the psychological environment is getting even worse. However, it is a different kind of pressure now. It is now peer pressure. Come to my secondary school and everywhere you look, you see branded stuff. Bags, pencil cases, shoes. Converse, MYUK, Nike. You see them all branded. I am neither a believer nor a worshipper of branded items. Sometimes when I coincidentally meet my schoolmates outside, I often notice the clothes they wear. Of course, they are branded as well. Even stationery like pens! Once, a friend told me that my stationery were lousy because they had no brand. I think that that is really the shallowest remark I have ever heard. Sometimes, I really do wonder what is wrong with the psychological environment, this superficial psychological environment that I am living in.
Of course, my future will not exist without the ever-increasing pressure of the environment on me. In my future, what I can only envision is work pressure, social pressure and perhaps the pressure to look good. But no, I will never succumb to the pressure. I will work hard, and stay resilient. I will be victorious.
So, this is my environment. It is an ever-so-challenging environment, and it will always stay so dramatic, so stupefyingly senseless.
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everything written in the essay is of pure personal experience and is 100% true.
please comment, people. thanks!
Dora Chan ate a strawberry at 9:19 PM
DORA
16+ years
Libra
2nd October 1993
Kuo Chuan Presby PS, Bedok West Primary, Anglican High School, Temasek JC
1F'00, 2A'01, 2/2'01, 3/1'02, 4/1'03, 5/1'04, 6/1'05, 1B'06, 2B'07, 3G'08, 4G'09, OG2!!!, CG 31/10
AHSCO yangqin/percussion<33
170cm, 50kg
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i aspire to attain a Masters degree in accountancy
and maybe run a full marathon someday in my life.
this is me, and im trying my best to stand on pointe(:
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dislikes
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DYing FOR
To be more grateful and content
more time for myself
Distinctions for all my piano exams :D
Greater determination improve on my academics
Respect
your well wishes
better skin
no more byebyes.
i want handmade cards on my birthday.(:
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and Burberry:D
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to manage my time better and stop doing last minute work
to complete a novel every fortnight
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to exercise MORE
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