Wednesday, February 23, 2011
this is probably the first time in 3 months (or more) that im blogging. i've not been blogging for so long to the point that i almost forgot my blogger password lol. sigh. life hasnt been easy so far :( now the stress that im facing does not only constitute academic stress but also emotional and mental stress from co too. sigh. i can actually feel that im physically ageing, omg. THIS IS BAD. well but then again, i cant wait to turn 18. M18 MOVIES OMG. IDIOT RATINGS.
i want to make more new friends.
Dora Chan ate a strawberry at 10:28 PM
Friday, September 17, 2010
IM GOING TO EUROPE IN TWO MONTHS' TIME! :DDDD
mummy has booked a tour for all five of us to paris, switzerland and italy. it cost papa a hefty sum of $4000 x 5= $20000 OMG O.O and that doesnt even include the 8 lunches that we're supposed to settle ourselves throughout the trip. oh wells. plus all the shopping expenses, i think the amount we spent really might go up to 25K. must enjoy myself! ;D i'll be away from 21 nov to 5dec so that's 14 days and exactly 2 weeks hahah. not even as long as the USA trip we went 10years ago, i remember it was 12 days and cost $15k.. haiz the terrors of inflation.
oh and the weather there will be really cold, mum says the temperature will be hovering around five degrees OMG. and it might plunge even lower in the mountaineous regions we're visiting. so we need to go get long johns and i need to borrow from someone cuz i dont want let papa spend unnecessary money again. hope eileen can find hers and can lend me:DD hahahah. and we got to bring alot of luggage cuz of all the thick clothing we need.
i really must work hard for promos! cannot let myself, mummy and papa down especially when he's spending so much money and time on me.
oh and papa got a call from lowrey yesterday regarding my grade8 practical exam results. the receptionist guy said i got distinction, but im currently still in the state of utter disbelief. sorry but i need to see the cert with my own eyes first before i can really be convinced that the examiner wasnt just an irrational person who gave marks based on the number of incorrect notes the candidate plays. i.e. the more wrong notes the higher marks.
off to rest. I WILL STUDY I WILL STUDY I WILL STUDY.
Dora Chan ate a strawberry at 10:34 PM
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Newyork was...indescribable. well in a positive way of course. :D i experienced so many new emotions really. and i want to thank the lord for the chance. (:
my trip photos are all on facebook(:
i want the confusion out of my head now. NOW.
Dora Chan ate a strawberry at 4:09 PM
Friday, May 28, 2010
i desperately want the chance to blog everyday again.
mardi gras was yesterday, and i think the atmosphere was really quite disappointing. performances were really not up to standard and only about 50% of people dressed up. i would have dressed up though, if i wasnt a performer. :( haiz, and i dont know why but it got really warm yesterday evening and everyone was just melting away D:
my schoolwork is still in a mess. i've beeen failing really badly, and it's not like i have no sense of urgency. but circumstances really make it so
difficult for me to work on my shortcomings :( the only things that make me happy with school is the ultimately fun MEP lessons that im taking :D ok and i know im not supposed to blog about pw but i seriously have to express my disgust and appall at the gross, torturous subject. D:
TJCO's concert 2010 is tmr. i'll give it my all. thanks so much to all who have bought tickets from me and to all that are going for the concert(: i've sold a total of 12 tickets:D
hopefully, there'll be some of me left for my mep practical exam on monday.
i dont wanna fail it, i really dont. D: it's the only subject that's keeping me going.
COUNTDOWN TO NEWYORKCITY: 5 DAYS.
OMG FIVE.
i wanna kiss you in the rain(:
Dora Chan ate a strawberry at 6:37 PM
Saturday, May 22, 2010
i learnt so much today, and in so many different aspects.
i love you. (:
Dora Chan ate a strawberry at 10:10 PM
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
yesterday was a damn crappy day i swear. gosh, the crazy memory of it still haunts me :(
i've been going for so many concerts these days i cannot even keep track of my own timeline. how ironic and morbid lol. anyway mj choir concert was not bad hahaha great job eileen! im so proud of you:D
co is still draining the hell out of me... somebody help, and the only way you can do tht is to get excuse for me to pon :P well without making me sick of course.
im supposed to have lit tutorial now but miss nansi isnt here (i've no idea why) :((((( i really need to have lit discussions.
me and my stupid random thoughts.
i cannot imagine how i can survive through the next two weeks going home at 9 everyday. LITERALLY, NO JOKE.
Dora Chan ate a strawberry at 8:34 AM
Saturday, May 8, 2010
school is starting to feel like a chore. im totally suffering from a severe lack of sleep, due to the frigging long hours spent in school and especially CO. imagine going home at 8+ and reaching home at 9.30 every week on tuesdays, wednesdays and thursdays! and although there are much lesser tests to study for, i still find the workload and activities so energy-draining.
am loving MEP more and more and more with every day that passes. :DDD
i feel like writing back in my diary again, instead of blogging.
somehow a diary feels so much closer.
Dora Chan ate a strawberry at 4:02 PM
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
have been really confused lately. gush of emotions, thoughts, feelings that are so less than overwhelming.
i need a break, and i need to overcome you.
You.
YOU.
Dora Chan ate a strawberry at 11:49 PM
Thursday, April 15, 2010
havent been blogging in a fairly long time.. i really wonder if people actually do visit my blog cuz the tags are just miserable. haha. but anyway. life's as usual, but i kinda of have a bad feeling of the things that are gonna come along soon. really soon.
something like a bad OMEN. A REAL BAD ONE.
and im scared.
the path has gotten rocky as we all know it.
it seems like a landslide is about to occur, soon, inside of me.
I MUST SLEEP BEFORE ELEVEN TODAY.
Dora Chan ate a strawberry at 5:25 PM
Friday, April 2, 2010
im falling in love with berets. like these.
Dora Chan ate a strawberry at 11:47 PM
Saturday, March 27, 2010
im supposed to leave for violin lesson in like half an hour's time, i havent started practising and im in front of my netty for already 2 hours - WHAT discipline do you call this!? :(
went for jamming yesterday again with the OG2 peeps, haha. i cant believe we're offered the chance to perform in a gig. manz, i never saw this coming, i never even imagined myself performing in a band in front of people. and i cant help but feel more apprehensive than excited about it.. like, i never thought and do not think im good enough for this. and its not only about being good enough; my confidence in performance is seriously not there at all. urgh, its just so hard to describe the feeling im experiencing. yes, i am enjoying the process of making music but somehow i just feel.. foreign.
ok, 4mins of blogging and this is what i got. kind of shitty, but still i managed something.
why i do i sound like an idiot today.
Dora Chan ate a strawberry at 2:54 PM
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Ok.. my blog has been obviously dead for such a long long time ever since i last blogged on 9th march. it hasnt really been my fault, looking at my pathetic schedule that ends late everyday..
anyway, the first week of term2 so far has been not only a blur of events, but a whirlwind of emotions. at least that's the case for me. i realise that i no longer feel inferior when it comes to failure of understanding concepts or learning new things, rather, i start feeling angry with myself. and i seriously dont understand why but whenever i feel this way, i become real quiet first, and then start finding faults with people to laugh at. like how i start laughing hysterically to the extent where my tears start spilling everywhere whenever the tutors have flaws in their pronounciation. yes, PRODUSHING. its really sinister and evil, but somehow my outlet of stress relief has shifted. still, i guess this year has been a much much better year than the last, when i was totally wallowing in self-pity the whole time round. i cant allow myself to lag behind, and yet at the same time, i dont want myself to be too stressed out. i guess it's kinda hard for a libra like me to have everything in perfect balance like how i always want things to be.
another thing that makes me feel sad is the fact that im really kind of a failure at keeping in contact with my past friends :(( actually i think the main problem is my poor time management skills, i seriously procrastinate so much. i want to meet up with eileen again again! :\
co has been halted for such a long time i feel out of place in school not having to attend practices :( really cant wait for saturday saturday saturday yay.
Dora Chan ate a strawberry at 7:01 PM
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
today was an extremely slackish day and i have to admit that i feel so guilty for wasting so much of my time.
i had the humanities scholarship interview and i think it went quite badly:( the questions they asked me on my essay were so weird and i was even stumped for words for some of the questions that were so hypothetical in nature. for eg, they asked "what do you think can be done to minimise parents' desire to push their children in their academics and talents?" like, hello, what can be done seriously. after thinking for like 5 seconds i gave a stupid answer and said parents should be educated through the media like the newspapers and talks organised by the school, and also, children should communicate more with their parents to discuss their abilities. and they also asked me if i exert any influence on my circle of friends. again i gave some stupid answer saying that i try to encourage and motivate my friends who feel negatively toward school. oh well, it's over and i guess i shouldn't brood over it anymore. :P then me and azalea went to bugis for lunch at yoshinoya (haha pon school) and we had an AWESOMEZ FUNNY time there LOLL. i think azalea's chinese compo is seriously damn funny and screwed up cos of all the horrific descriptions i added in.. i think i sorta made it worse with all the additional words added. hahaha lol but at least she hit 400 words... haha not bad for having to write on someone that's so quiet huh. :DD
ok i guess i better go and do some proper work if not my 24 hours of today, 9 march 2010 will seriously be wasted and i really hate it when im wasting time D:
happy birthday dillian!! :D
Dora Chan ate a strawberry at 9:20 PM
Monday, March 8, 2010
in the past when the wind blew
my hair messy
i used to keep it very much in place
or at least
i tried to
keep the strands in place
but now
when my hair gets messy
i feel like
i don't really care much about
anything.
my playing in CO practice today was seriously screwed up, and to the max SCREWED. that wasn't even my hands playing, i felt possessed. dora chan does not play yangqin in such a screwed up manner.
happy birthday in advance to dillian, whose birthday is tmr.:D
wish me luck for my humanities scholarship interview tmr, im gonna have to be interrogated and slammed by 3-4 MOE officials/principals for a whole stressful 10-15 mins at 11.15a.m.
Dora Chan ate a strawberry at 5:07 PM
Thursday, March 4, 2010
it has been another crazy week full of events that inevitably clash into one another, making me rush from place to place just to fulfill my busy schedule.
we just had literature night in school from 6-8.15, and i must say it was really really awesome. it was so inspirational i even felt like crying after listening to some very touching and sad poems. and the singer who accompanied miss nansi was so, so professional too. enjoyed myself thoroughly, felt like my soul was being cleansed haha.
i also had gamma 800m finals just now. haha, my position was not in the least good, i can frankly spell out my position: 15/19. actually there was supposed to be 21 girls but 2 dropped out. im not feeling sad like how i felt during my sec2 napfa run when i got position 12th, or disappointed like how i felt after the roadrun in february. i guess i've really have done my best and there's nothing and no one i can blame except myself for the unimpressive position. im not saying im demoralised or angry at myself, in fact im really satisfied with my performance cos it was my utmost best(:
don't we realise we don't have to be first in everything?
i finally understand why sometimes, Position
doesn't really matter.
school is such a whirlwind; if things could slow down by just a second, it would make a huge difference.
im inspired to write poetry:D
Dora Chan ate a strawberry at 10:18 PM
